The Sun through the Signs
The Sun through the Houses
Planets making aspects to the Sun.
Now we come to the Sun and what this means. As centre of the Solar System, the Sun also symbolises what is central for us - our identity. Psychologically it represents our experience of the father and his influence or lack of influence on the building of our character and ability to express ourselves as individuals. It also symbolises our creative drive and need to be visible. We strive to realise the qualities the Sun represents in our horoscope through a process of individuation throughout our life. This self-realisation process is our highest goal.
The Sign the Sun is in shows the direction in which we strive to realise ourselves. The Sun changes sign every month. The qualities of this sign are like adjectives which colour our self-expression. We have developing and perfect these qualities to truly find ourselves. This means that with the
Sun in Aries developing your personal identity, means: Discover your individuality. In relation to others you expect to be respected and hate to be told what to do. You function best when your leadership is undisputed. You prefer excitement in a relationship, and thrive in a partnership which gives you freedom and independence. At the same time you can be rather naive and romantic. You enjoy competition in relationships, and hate being fawned upon. Perhaps you like to see yourself as a knight in shining armour, or a pioneer on some way. You have a direct nature and youthful charm, though you may be somewhat self-absorbed. Harmony usually depends on your learning to see things from the point of view of other people. Women with this influence may project it and thus be attracted to men with the qualities described. Men will tend to stand on their masculine dignity in a rather adolescent way. The greatest transformations in your life come when you learn to assert your individual nature.
Sun in Taurus developing your personal identity, means: Stabilise your foundation. Basically you seek stability and security. However some of the greatest testing times of your life come when your values change and periods of instability arise. These periods will often be accompanied by the need to lose or give up something to which you are extremely attached. Your fate is to understand the very nature of attachment and yet develop greater flexibility in the face of gain or loss. Partnerships can be affected by your inertia as regards the need for renewal and change. When your self-worth is reflected by inner values which can never be lost, you become a tower of strength for yourself and others. Other things being equal you can build a wall of security around your loved ones. However you may have rather fixed ideas and principles, and you rarely allow yourself to be influenced. When those around you desire change, this can create a good deal of frustration.
Sun in Gemini developing your personal identity, means: Explore your ideas. The greatest challenges come for you when communication problems arise. Often an important break with a brother, sister or close friend can inaugurate a complete mental revaluation. In your essential search for meaning you can feel a bond to two very different schools of thought, or you can have two mentors with quite different ideas. Variety and polarity is the stuff of life for you, and you feel distinctly uncomfortable if you are asked to identify yourself with one single direction or opinion. Tension can arise in partnership matters because of your changeability and seeming inconstancy. Often it is enough for you to entertain fleeting ideas as a kind of mental gymnastics. Thus frustration arises in others because you don't always act on your ideas. Nevertheless you are fun to be with; you rarely take yourself too seriously, and are always willing to adapt to change.
Sun in Cancer developing your personal identity, means: Sense of belonging. The bond to your mother will have been particularly formative. You are sensitive and easily hurt - though this may not be immediately apparent on the outside. Likewise, you are loyal and passionate in your defence of those you love - injury done to them is also done to you. You have a strong and instinctive protective nature. The greatest dilemma in your life comes when the bonds of attachment are broken - for example in connection with changes in the family structure. At these times it is important to recognise the dangers of sentimental attachment to the past. Your reluctance to let things go can stand in the way of your personal development. You have a great talent for building up a nurturing environment for those who are close to you, yet it can also help to be more open to those who are not necessarily so close. You are easily upset by changes in your daily rhythm, and can be rather grumpy when called upon to change habitual behaviours. Your home is your castle.
Sun in Leo developing your personal identity, means: Develop self-appreciation. Your relationship to your father has direct relation to your degree of self-confidence. Although you can be warm, gallant and charming, you have a strong need to dominate in partnerships and have a tendency to be attention-grabbing precisely because of insecurity in this area. You are romantic, and not averse to the occasional affair to give your ego the shine it needs. Great challenges in your life occur in connection with your sense of identity. In these periods of crisis you will tend to radically change your image. Your exaggerated sensitivity to the kind of impression you make on your loved one makes way, as you mature, for a stronger sense of self-security based on inner convictions. It is at these times that false pride and elitism bite the dust, and your natural nobility emerges.
Sun in Virgo developing your personal identity, means: Oiling the works. The main challenges to your identity come when changes arise in your environment - whether it is personal health, in the home or in your working life. It is at these times that you learn to use your discriminative judgement to refine and clear out impurities in one form or another. You have a particularly well-developed critical sense and strong powers of analysis, and these can be your tool for personal development. This means overcoming a tendency to be self-critical, and giving yourself the credit you deserve for being of assistance to others. To attain harmony in partnership matters you must also avoid being critical of the partner. You can be too busy and too involved in the everyday running of things, and this can evoke a passive state in the partner. Being a perfectionist, you tend to end up doing all the work in the home yourself. If you do not set limits for help, you will be taken advantage of.
Sun in Libra developing your personal identity, means: Create balance. The major formative experiences in your life are connected with relationships. In these key periods changes connected with your intimate bonds to another will lead to a revaluation of who you are and what your role is in life. You learn at these times that being true to yourself means not always compromising your needs for the sake of a relationship. Indeed this kind of compromise often involves an element of manipulation - if only through your natural charm. Nevertheless, you feel a sense of self most strongly when in a harmonious relationship and it is here that your talents lie. Your appreciation of beauty and your good taste brings an atmosphere of peace. You show a natural concern for others, but you demand that this concern goes both ways - you cannot accept a relationship, if the romance has gone out of it, and you are skilled at recreating conditions for love.
Sun in Scorpio developing your personal identity, means: Develop emotional insight. Being able to trust someone, and being sure that nothing is hidden from your considerable perceptive talents are essential ingredients for a good relationship. And intense emotional relationships are very important to you - you do not like superficiality at all. Turning points in your life come in the form of psychological breakthroughs which shake your emotional foundations. Often this will be connected with the transformation of a deep emotional bond, which wakens your latent anxiety connected with emotional security. By giving up the illusion of being able to control others emotionally, you are confronted with your own vulnerability. Your facade of inscrutability is transformed and a softer and more understanding side of your character is evoked. Your greatest talent is your ability to strengthen others by your emotional and mental support.
Sun in Sagittarius developing your personal identity, means: Inspire with your visions. You are considerably inspired by nobility of the mind, and intellectual achievement. Your personal visions about the future can be very significant for the people you come into contact with. Some of the great turning points in your life come when you discover new mental frontiers which force you to discard old beliefs which you identified strongly with. You do have a tendency to pontificate about what you believe to be true. Experience shows, however, that you rarely stay in the same place as regards beliefs, and that truth is relative to your discoveries at any one time. Relationships would therefore benefit, if you were less forceful and argumentative and more open to the point of view of your partner. You may feel it is your duty to inform people of what you regard to be the truth, but experience will teach you that people listen best when you wait to be asked for your views.
Sun in Capricorn developing your personal identity, means: Define your highest goal. You have rather conventional tastes and quite a strong sense of morality, and you will be looking for qualities you can respect in a partner. You tend to judge weaknesses rather severely and expect a high standard in your relationships. As you are strongly motivated by your ambitions you may have a tendency to neglect your emotional life in favour of your professional interests. It is essential to find a balance between your professional and personal life. Public commitments can often take priority over private, though you will always be conscientious in your duty to the family. Partners can find you rather stiff and unspontaneous, and although this may be the case, you are normally loyal and responsible as regards family life. You are generally a person who can be trusted. When your outer facade melts you can be quite soft and sensual, and very devoted.
Sun in Aquarius developing your personal identity, means: Energise your social environment. The great turning points in your life happen in connection with upheavals in social relationships. As your opinions and beliefs change you will find yourself redefining who you want to be together with. The loss of good friends for one reason or another can thus lead to a strong sense of isolation whilst you re-evaluate your visions. Your greatest talent is the unconscious ability to create an almost magic atmosphere when you are together with people. Although you are warm and friendly, in intimate relationships you can be rather uncomfortable about showing your emotions. When under emotional pressure, you tend to freeze up and establish a distance, and this can be rather disturbing for your partner. A wise partner will never stand in the way of you and your friends.
Sun in Pisces developing your personal identity, means: Make your dreams tangible. Many of the turning points in your life are of a spiritual nature in that you learn to discern a meaning behind events which makes sense of the seemingly meaningless nature of things. These experiences constantly enhance your sensitivity and personal insight. In this process of personal development it is essential for you to resolutely avoid any feeling of martyrdom, even though you more than most are aware of, and witness to, the tragedies of human existence. Partnerships function best when you avoid the two extremes of having unrealistic expectations of the partner, and going around feeling the odds are stacked against you. By avoiding negative states of mind as far as possible, you can attract good fortune to yourself, and give spiritual sustenance to others.
The House's of the Sun.
The House the Sun is in indicates the specific area in the material world in which we manifest our identity. We will identify very strongly with the practical issues that this House represents. Self-realisation comes through the matters connected with the House. So as your
Sun is in the 1st house developing your personal identity, means: Actualise your self. You tend to see life as a drama where the spotlight is on you. Some people may feel that you are self-centred in this respect, but it is part of your mission in life to realise yourself and your creative abilities. Everything you do in life is done with a powerful self-awareness, and this can be both a blessing and a curse. Aware of the impact you have on your surroundings, you feel that you are on stage all the time, and that much is demanded of you. You may wish to tone down the intensity of your presence, as you do have a tendency to steal the limelight....but you can be fun to be with. You can sparkle and energise other people. And you have genuine good intentions and a natural generosity, which, though sometimes rather overwhelming, can be of benefit to others.
Sun is in the 2nd house developing your personal identity, means: Creating personal values. Material values and status are seen by you as a testimonial to your self-worth. Therefore you build up strong attachments to things and have a keen sense of values. Some people may see you as materialistic, but for you material acquisitions can be a strong foundation for continued growth, and success in this area means you are often in a position to be quite generous. You need to feel that you are respected in all areas of your life; therefore you embrace conventional values and stick to them. It takes a lot to get you to shift your view or perspective. However periods which bring economic changes can lead to a profound revaluation of your values.
Sun is in the 3rd house developing your personal identity, means: Disseminate knowledge. Your father, or maybe a brother who you had respect for, will have had a powerful effect on your mental identity, perhaps as a mentor. Their travels and interests will expand your horizons. In life you invest considerable energy into expressing your ideas - and you identify very strongly with them, seeing intelligence as a yardstick for self-esteem. As such, some of the most far-reaching personal changes come, when you have to change the way you think. Changes in sibling relationships can also leave their mark.
Sun is in the 4th house developing your personal identity, means: Pride in the family. Your upbringing has had an especially profound effect on your identity, and your father's influence will have been particularly strong in this respect. You have had a compelling need to look up to him and use him as a role model - for good or ill. Later in life you will draw great strength from the family you build up yourself, and your children will probably take a central role in your life. Your home and family will be the most important motivating influence for you, and you will be aggressively protective of them. You identify strongly with your home and may also take a special interest in your family history. You will not mind spending a lot of your time at home - this where you can really be yourself.
Sun is in the 5th house developing your personal identity, means: Self-expression. Childhood had a powerful effect on your ability to enjoy life and express yourself. Generally speaking you have a surplus of energy and a bubbling character. You easily fall in love with love, and your natural radiance can be a powerful factor in attracting partners. You are disposed to love affairs, and there may be a rather narcissistic element here because you are seeking confirmation of the attractiveness of your own identity from partners. You contribute a sense of fun in relationships, and this makes you a hit with children. You can attain self-realisation through developing your creative interests.
Sun is in the 6th house developing your personal identity, means: Service. In your search for self-expression you will find great meaning in the concept of service. As such you are a very unselfish person, and your greatest satisfaction comes from helping others or being useful. You can find meaning in daily rituals and small acts of devotion. By watching and improving the way things function you find a place for your identity in the larger scheme of things. Your partner will appreciate your helpful nature, but you have to know when to draw the line - otherwise you may end up with all the work. You have a talent for matters concerning health and diet, and you can gain insight into your identity through developing your consciousness of the interdependence of mind, emotions and body.
Sun is in the 7th house developing your personal identity, means: Finding self in others. Partnerships are important for you, and you can find your true identity when you tune in to the needs of another. You choose a partner you can look up to and respect - someone whose charisma can reflect on you. Women with this position may choose a father-figure type who is prominent in society - perhaps a member of the social elite, or successful in some other way. Men with this position tend to assume a father role. The tendency to identify too strongly with the partner can mean that you have no clear idea who you are as a person. An identity crisis at some point of your life will redress this imbalance, but if your partner is immature, there will be disappointment when you no longer put him or her on a pedestal. However, by defining your own goals and identity you can take the pressure off your partner to fulfil unrealistic expectations .
Sun is in the 8th house developing your personal identity, means: Soul-searching. You spend a great deal of your life trying to define who you are. Early anxieties connected with the father - who was in some way rather unapproachable, and who may have struggled with existential issues himself - have given rise to a compulsive need to manifest yourself. Your drive to feel secure in the inner reaches of your soul, and your frustration when the image you build up of yourself periodically falls into ruins, leads you on an inner journey in which you achieve self-definition through deep psychological insight. There are many deaths and rebirths in this process, and other people will see your struggle as intense and rather exhausting, especially as it is in intimate relationships that you test yourself. Remember that relationships do not have to be a life or death experience. Sexuality, possessiveness and jealousy, or mutual psychotherapy for good or ill, are all important factors in relationships.
Sun is in the 9th house developing your personal identity, means: Search for meaning. You have a powerful drive to realise yourself through intellectual, philosophical or spiritual interests. This probably arises from a father who had similar interests. You are fascinated by what makes the world go round, and what your place is in the scheme of things. When you find deeper significance in the events that go on around you, you formulate strong opinions which form the basis of your identity. Indeed people may find you opinionated and rather intellectually dominating. As a seeker of truth you can give others deep inspiration, though it is better to let others come to you, than for you to foist your convictions on them. During the course of your life you are disposed towards strong religious experiences, and you might benefit from - though you will never allow yourself to be subservient to - the guidance of a wise man.
Sun is in the 10th house developing your personal identity, means: Professional manifestation. You are extremely involved in issues of self-esteem and feel that your own self-worth must be measured by your achievements in society. This attitude stems from the influence of a parent - probably your father - who imbued in you ideas of respect and duty to society. Attaining goals, then, is the strongest motivational factor in your life. The problems is that you tend to move the goalposts in a constant spiral of striving. Perhaps it would be wise to relax more and enjoy the fruits of your labours? Because you identify so strongly with your professional position - you are what you do - you may have difficulty being spontaneous and natural on an intimate or emotional level. You also have a deep need to be respected and appreciated by your partner. Being known or respected makes you take yourself too seriously.
Sun is in the 11th house developing your personal identity, means: Group consciousness. Some of the most important personal developments for you come through your experiences in groups and with friends. Your social life is central. You set great store on being accepted and respected in the social scene, and you are in general a loyal and warm-hearted friend. Your social connections have such a high priority that they may affect the harmony of intimate relationships. Your partner may feel that you are avoiding emotional intimacy, but it would be wise to encourage you in your social interests, because you become a more whole person through contact with others. You have a fascination and talent for working in consciousness-raising groups, and benefit greatly from contact with untraditional people from international backgrounds.
Sun is in the 12th house developing your personal identity, means: Dissolution of ego. You have the capacity to take on many roles in your life, assuming the professional guise which is expected of you under any given situation. The greater part of your life is spent in a search to find or define your identity. As a child you probably felt a sense of isolation, and in relation to your father you may have felt that he was remote, a dreamy figure who was difficult to get into contact with. Later in life you also personally feel a sense of remoteness and often find that the goals you pursue lead to disappointment or a sense of meaningless. This inner dissatisfaction motivates you to go on an inner journey to understand the nature of yourself. You can find meaning when you withdraw from the world for a period of time - too much contact with others for too long can be confusing for you. You would benefit greatly from meditation, because a spiritual practice or creative work enables you to reach the core of your being. When you are there you discover your place in the cosmos, and the cosmos's place in you. For you to truly find yourself, you must lose yourself. You can discover the interdependency of humanity and the universe.
Aspects of the Sun The Aspects to our Sun show psychological influences on our identity which have to be integrated in some way. Aspects indicate specific effects that modify the expression of our identity and make us unique individuals. Aspects can also show quite precisely how we experienced the influence of the father, and how that modifies our attempts to become individuals. In you case you have
Sun aspecting Moon which means: Conscious/Unconscious. As the Moon waxes and wanes, it goes through different phases showing its relationship to the Sun. Each phase has a specific effect on personal character. At the New Moon - or conjunction - there is a strong self-awareness, but some frustration as regards getting on in life. Past bonds have a strong hold on the personal nature and will often stand in the way of progress. In relationships the conjunction can make it difficult to gauge one's effect on the partner, and although there is a strong sensitivity, it is felt very subjectively. Often the bond to the parents is rather unique with this aspect, and the family life is characterised by an insular self-sufficiency. The father may exhibit a strong emotional or caring nature, and the mother may well have strong independent characteristics. The full moon - or opposition - on the other hand gives almost too much objectivity, and emotional interactions in relationships are quite dominant. There is a tendency to project behaviour and attitudes on the partner, which in reality belong to oneself. This may be due to an upbringing in which there was a strong contrast between the parents. If so, you will have identified strongly with one parent to the detriment of the other. The half moon - or square aspect - also bring conflict between the identity and emotional needs. As you mature it becomes essential to control inappropriate emotional reactions which relate back to frustration regarding your interpretation of parental conflict. When the Sun and Moon have a harmonious relationship to each other, through the trine or sextile aspect, there is much greater ease in expressing feelings and ascertaining one's effect on others. Whatever the aspect, you will have a very strong emotional nature, and feel an enormous pull from the past. You will have well-developed instincts and a talents for delving in to the dark realms of the unconscious. Generally speaking with all aspects between the Sun and the Moon it pays to exert the influence of the will on your emotions, so that you gain greater consciousness of the deep-seated emotional programmes which still unconsciously affect your behaviour.
Sun aspecting Mercury which means: Subjectivity. Intelligence and communication are important issues for you in your personal relationships. You identify strongly with what you say, and it can be a blow to your personal pride if you are ignored or misunderstood. As are result you tend to be forceful in your opinions and at times unreceptive to what other people say and think. You are overly subjective, and you can spend a great deal of time running an inner dialogue in which you talk to yourself. By nature you exude a youthful spirit and a certain naiveté or immaturity. People might call you flighty - even a Peter Pan figure. Unless other influences in the horoscope contradict this, you may lack staying power and skip from one relationship to another. You need the stimulation of travel and contact with interesting people to keep you occupied and burn off all your surplus energy. Your father may have been an intelligent or talkative person, with a nervous or skittish nature. You will judge the relationship you had with him through your ability to understand him and establish mental contact, and subsequently you judge yourself through your ability to establish mental contact with others.
Sun aspecting Venus which means:Style. It is extremely important for you to feel liked, and you go to considerable lengths to make a good impression. You are personally warm and affectionate, and enjoy both making and being the recipient of romantic gestures. Your mild manner probably comes from your father, who may well have been very loving and considerate. Indeed, women with this aspect often idealise their fathers and have difficulty shaking off their attachment. Later in life they will tend to become romantically involved with a softer type of man, in whom they imagine very gallant properties. For both sexes problems can arise through denial of the shadow side of the personality and the reluctance to see that people cannot always be ladies and gentlemen. Sometimes too, there may be a tendency to manipulate others through the conscious use of charm, and a far too rosy self-portrayal. Nevertheless personal self-esteem is a central issue for the identity, and learning to love and accept yourself is a prerequisite before you can function well in a relationship.
Sun aspecting Mars which means:Competition. You are the kind of person who likes action, excitement and adventure. Being easily bored you tend to be rather provocative. Women with this aspect may have had a young or immature father, and in the more extreme cases there may even have been physical violence in childhood. Alternatively the woman with this aspect will have had a "buddy" relationship to the father and become involved with masculine pursuits. Later in life there will be a tendency to be attracted to a very masculine type of man. It may be important for the woman to really respect and look up to the man - but there is often an attraction to rather immature males, who never quite got out of adolescence. Subsequently the man may have great difficulty living up to masculine archetypes which basically exist within the woman's character, and this will lead to conflicts or battles of power, until the woman accepts a more personally assertive role. Men with this aspect are very concerned about their masculinity and take pride in their ability to compete in the world. Sexual performance and the ability to take on a classic male role in relation to a woman are essential elements in the character. This Tarzan syndrome has its drawbacks. Problems can arise because of lack of sensitivity to the emotional needs of the woman. The man's over-identification with the male role can be perceived as faintly comical by the woman who would probably set greater store by demonstrations of tenderness and affection. The woman tends to be the prize which the man wins and later guards and protects.
Sun aspecting Jupiter which means:Insight. You are an inspiring person with a wonderful capacity for positive thinking and looking on the bright side. You are a seeker of wisdom, and this search will lead to many studies and many travels to widen your intellectual horizons. During the course of your life, you acquire a set of opinions and personal convictions which play rather a dominating role in your environment. Gaining understanding of the meaning of your own life is important, and you identify strongly with the conclusions you come to. You have a great need to find a mentor or wise person who can instruct you, but few people will have the capacity to impress you on an intellectual or spiritual level. If you do not cultivate a sensitivity to the ideas of others you can become opinionated and arrogant. Others can find you mentally dominating or over-forceful in discussions. There is more dignity in giving your opinion only when asked, than in foisting your beliefs on others. Generally however, you will create a good impression because of the wide span of your mind, and a tolerant attitude towards others.
Sun aspecting Saturn which is all about: Winning self-esteem. Your relationship to your father was probably strongly affected by hard discipline and high expectations. The bond may be strong, but characterised by your efforts to win his approval. If you got good grades at school, your father will have expected even better. Naturally as you grow up you integrate a severe sense of values which is a strong motivational factor for achievement. You become your own harshest judge.
Actually you are born with the need to create a strong internal structure and set of rules for your life - you evoke behaviour in your parents so that this need is fulfilled. You expect to be disciplined. Furthermore you are unreceptive to praise, so that when people come with favourable comments on your work and deeds, you have the tendency to play down your efforts in a dismissive manner. People learn that you do not want recognition, even if you think you do. The only kind of recognition and acceptance that really works for you is your own - yet as you judge yourself hard, this rarely comes. You are, then, your own master, so why not try giving yourself some rewards. Internal praise has a very healing effect on you, and this is a question of confronting the inner voice of guilt and enlisting its support to make you strong.
You are a rather formal person who takes life seriously. Childhood experiences - especially the relationship with your father - has undermined your self-confidence and made you reluctant to stick your neck out. You are more likely to bury your "talent" than gamble with it. You have a strong need for approval, but as a child love and approval was always conditional on your performance. You have been more appreciated for what you did, than for who you are. Later in life you tend to judge yourself harshly, and you have a bad conscience about enjoying life and relaxing. You tend to be too dismissive when offered love and affection, and rather severe when giving it. There may be authoritarian tendencies and a lack of flexibility as regards rules. Nevertheless, you are a person who can be trusted. You have high principles, and as you do not indulge expectations of the easy life, you work hard to build up a secure structure in life for those you hold dear.
Sun aspecting Chiron which is all about: Lives purpose. When Chiron aspects the Sun, the full sense of self, of being who we really are, is related to the degree that we experience spirituality,higher consciousness, in our lives. This aspect has to do with identifying one's dharma, ones path in life, and the nature of the aspect shows whether this path has been constant stress or progressive actualisation.>
The sextile produces a profound depth at an early age, an environment which offers opportunities to develop high principles, and a great inner need to bring a significant work into the world. There is a noticeable steadiness and constant drive, but rarely satisfied with accomplishments until Uranus opposition to itself at about forty two years.
The Square. Natives with Chiron Square the sun show the typical pattern of working with squares: they have a difficult struggle with spirituality before the Saturn return, they work on the real meaning of life intensely during their thirties, and they begin to master the dilemma after the Uranus opposite Uranus. These native have a very difficult time at the Uranus Opposition when the Uranian electrical infusion exacerbates the Chiron square Sun and tends to cause neurological stress. This is a tough position; counselling will help greatly, and these natives need affirmation about progress of the heavy struggle with Saturn. Shoulder massage is a necessity for them. They need to learn to control Saturn and not have Saturn control them. they are hard on themselves, but let go of control. Once they discover their destiny/Sun, they will find themselves in control with working with Uranian imbalance.
Chiron opposite the Sun creates a life and death struggle to bring the self into full expression. And the expression the Sun finds must be alchemical and healing. In other words there is a dynamic urge to know and express your own sense of self as expressed by your solar placement. People with this placement can go to extraordinary lengths to find and fulfil themselves. They also seem to end their quest in some form of healing, teaching or spiritual practice.
Sun aspecting Uranus which is all about: Consciousness change. Your father was probably unusual in some way, and he will have brought a sense of unpredictability into your life - perhaps because he travelled a lot, perhaps because he was an outsider in some way, or simply because he acted irrationally so that you never quite knew what he would do next. You may have had a friendly - not fatherly - relationship to him, or you may have felt totally alienated. Whatever, there was an aura of tension or excitement in your relationship.
Later in life this evokes a need for you developing unconventional habits and be different in some way. Moreover, you can adopt a rather distant attitude to your feelings. At its most extreme, there can be a lack of grounding with very little sense of contact with the physical body, and far too much mental activity. Success in your life depends on you coming down to earth with your visions. Factors in your upbringing can lead you to feel that you are an outsider. Actually you would prefer not to run with the crowd, so why worry about being different? This feeling can be utilised positively by helping people who feel they are outsiders.
You are a true individual and other people may regard you as rather eccentric. You like to express yourself through actions which surprise others in some way, and you enjoy embracing ideas which are provocative. You do not like to feel tied down, and function best in a relationship which gives you a lot of personal freedom. Often your friends will seem more important than your family, and as a result partners can feel that they are unable to establish an intimate contact with you, though you are usually quite open and fair-minded. During certain periods of your life you will choose to change your direction radically. These personal revolutions are often accompanied by new interests of an untraditional nature - for example astrology, electronics and technical matters, or mental powers. You have an electric and rather unstable aura around you, and often your nerves are on edge. People feel uncertain around you as they feel that anything can happen, so you would be wise to put them at ease about your intentions.
Sun aspecting Neptune which is all about: Find meaning in spirituality. Your early connection with your father was special in some way. You may feel you had an intimate contact with him on a spiritual level, although later events will prove that you deluded yourself in this respect. But your father will have touched you in some ineffable way. He may have created a special atmosphere of dissatisfaction around him which evoked concern in you. In extreme cases there can be illness, alcoholism or some form of escapism. It is rare for the father to attain his dreams.
Actually you tend to misread people because of your longing for an ideal. Your father will embody this ideal and most probably fail to live up to it, and later you will put others in this role. When you stop having expectations of this kind, you will be able to avoid disappointment. Your dissatisfaction is a friend that guides you towards purifying and refining your life.
You are a sensitive and impressionable person with a strong need to be able to define who you are. You often feel that your grasp on reality is not tangible. If life becomes boring or monotonous, this can strike at the very core of your identity. Women with this aspect put their men on a pedestal from which they rapidly fall. In your longing to find an ideal that does not dissolve like a mirage in front of you, you will constantly refine your nature. Your longing and dissatisfaction is the engine of spiritual change in your life. You find yourself by going within yourself. Meaning in life comes when you seek to attain idealistic goals and develop a collective vision which benefits others. You would definitely benefit from meditative practice.
Sun aspecting Pluto which is all about: Transformation of identity. It has not been possible for you to cement any truly deep bond to your father. Perhaps he disappeared when you were young, and a stepfather took his place, perhaps he was at home but unreachable or distant in some way. Because intimacy was impossible to attain, you feel a inner chasm of emptiness connected with your identity.
You have felt that you were not recognised as an individual - hence your deep need to manifest yourself strongly later in life. Although some of the fault almost certainly lies with your father, you have a tendency to compound the problem by withdrawing yourself totally when you feel ignored or unappreciated. This was your way of protecting yourself psychologically as a child, but in the long run these tactics lead to a profound alienation.
The enormous efforts you make to gain self-acceptance ultimately lead to great personal power and psychological insight. Psychic or intuitive powers can enrich your life and give strength to others.
Early personal experiences have made you sensitive about your identity, and anxious about self-esteem. However this means, paradoxically, that you often overwhelm others with your presence. Thus you tend to be a dominating figure in intimate relationships. You need a partner who is not superficial and who shares your intense approach to life. To achieve harmony here you should relax instead of asserting yourself, otherwise relationships will become very exhausting. It is important to realise that power battles are related to inner fears about your identity. Women with this influence will often be attracted to a dominating man, only to find that he does not match her own strength which was acquiring through trying times in childhood. More intimacy can achieved by daring to show vulnerability.
Sun aspecting Node: The illusion of being. Contacts with other people will play an important role in your search to get into touch with your inner identity. Father figures - through their presence or through their disappearance - will force you to ask a lot of questions about the nature of your existence, and this will in time lead to new spiritual growth and vision. Influential people and - later in life - spiritual authorities, may be eclipsed through sudden inner realisations. Times of inner darkness alternate with the blinding light of Truth.